Part One
(I promise this is will go somewhere)
When I was a bit younger, my husband got a kick out me saying that so in so “was an ego trip” instead of that they were “on an ego trip”. I’m one for using my words to try to exaggerate and I told him that I knew that “was an ego trip” wasn’t correct, but that I felt like it did a good job of explaining, exaggerating, the extent to which I thought said person had a case of ego mania.
(starting to head of track)
I also enjoyed using the phrase “over exaggerate”. To which my husband (then just a boyfriend) replied that exaggerate was already exaggerated and he didn’t think that “over exaggerate” was a proper combination of words. Well, my reply was much the same as the reply to the “was an ego trip” thing.
Doesn’t “over exaggerate” really put the amount of exaggerating into perspective? If you’re over exaggerating you are exaggerating A LOT! Probably more than needed. I enjoy using this phrase – correct or not. And I probably always will. Except now that I’m writing about it I will become more aware of it and it will most likely quietly go away.
(going farther off track here)
Same thing happened to my hugs. I got picked on (very lovingly) about the frequency of my hugs. I was hugging every time I saw people. If I saw you at lunch time, I hugged you, even if I had just seen you and hugged you at breakfast 3 hours ago. Now I don't hug as much anymore. I don’t think this is what my friend intended, but it’s just what happened.
(on the same “farther off” track)
I also used to love using the sound/word “aanywhoooo”. You know how it’s used … “So and so did something totally stupid. - insert anywho here because now we need to change the subject - ”. Didn’t this actually come from Seinfeld? I know I didn’t create it; I just copied it because it really gets the point across. Aanywhooo – someone commented on not liking the sound of it and now it is rarely, if ever, brought out of the word vault. My husband actually used it the other day and it reminded me that I used to use it. Of course all I could think of was that someone close to me thinks this is red neck. But if it came from Seinfeld (or Friends) it’s really just Yankee.
(same track – “off”)
And lately, I have realized that I use the word “Bazillion” way too often. But that’s another word that is really great at “over exaggerating”, don’t you think? Because you know what a bazillion is, right? Well it’s actually in the online dictionaries. It is slang for an unspecified large number. And so is a squillion. Maybe I’ll start using squillion because I’m starting to get self conscious about using “bazillion”. Which means it’s sure to begin quietly going away soon.
Part Two
(back on track – whew)
But back to my first thought regarding ego trips. The whole reason for bringing those up was to let you know that I think I am an ego trip. Or maybe I am just on one. And here’s why I think it, it has to do with these blog posts.
I visit and read other blogs and sometimes comment. I am often blown away by the sheer number of commenters/readers on some of these blogs. The authors of some of these blogs are writers by trade, with their blogs out there for all to read, so there is a good reason why their comment numbers sometimes reach the 100+ mark.
Then there’s me. I post. And I post. And I’ve gotten more regular about it now that I don’t feel the need for pictures all of the time. Pics are a pain sometimes. But I keep posting even though I often get no comments. And I think this must mean that I am and am also on an ego trip. I post and come back and read my own stuff, often enjoying it. I even make my poor husband listen as I read some of my posts to him (‘cause otherwise he doesn’t visit to know what I’ve written about). And I do all of this with no commenter or reader in sight.
A fine example that I must be doing this for me, not for my (lack of) readers, is my recent post about my female issues. I have actually had several people comment to me on “why in the world would I ever blog about that?” Hey, didn’t even know you were a reader.
Well, there’s two reasons:
1) It’s my blog.
And 2) the fact that I rarely have comments leaves me to believe that only I (and maybe my Mom and Aunt - who I would normally talk to about these things anyway) would be reading my blog. And I certainly don’t have any male readers. Besides, I gave LOTS of notice, lots, about the content of that post. I tried to use as many words as possible in the title and the first two paragraphs to let you know about the nature of that post.
But as it turns out, crazy as it sounds, I do have at least one male reader (Hi, D.C. ;0)). I had no clue. I didn’t even know his wife and her sister were readers. And you know why I didn’t know? Because they don’t comment. Which is fine. But me and my ego would love to have people leaving comments every now and then.
What is the etiquette for leaving comments anyway? I frequent blogs that I have found simply by virtue of clicking links on my blog to get to the next, and so on, and so on, and so on. I have also found some because Blogger lists “Blogs of Note” periodically. (That’s where I came across Farm Girl Fare.)
Some of these bloggers don’t know me. Will they be scared if I comment – because, you know, they don’t know me. Or, will these bloggers be excited that there’s a new commenter? So sometimes I comment, sometimes I don’t. But I’m nervous about it all the same.
But if these were my blog – I would like the comments. Except for when I click your link to see who you are and the post that comes up is all about the kind of knives you’ll be wearing on your hands when you come to “get” me, the reader of your post. I will delete your comment every time. EVERYTIME!
So this very long, two part post is simply to say – I WELCOME YOUR COMMENTS. I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW YOU’RE READING. And you don’t have to have an account, when you post you can simply choose to include your name. Blogger will ask for your website, but you don’t have to fill in that blank.
Help feed my ego. Or I will continue to post about my female things. Maybe even without warning next time.